Correction...

He's 31.


Things are still not good. We're more just like...average friends than a couple. We haven't exchanged any affection since I got back. We haven't touched at all. No hug, no kiss, nothing. It's making me very sad.

You! Me! Crying!

I need someone to talk to. I feel so unhappy with my relationship but I have nobody that I can turn to. They're all either his friends too...or just...it's not appropriate. Apparently glandular fever not only triggers severe exhaustion, but sometimes also depression. I'm struggling with myself at the moment.
He's out at his new friend's house 'watching a dvd'. When I mentioned yesterday that I would be in Stirling if he cared to hang out he told me he'd be doing his essay. Since I changed my mind and came home, he seems to have plenty of time to socialise. All I'm asking for is a little time and attention.
Like T said though, he's 30, nobody's gonna change him now, least of all me.

Agh.

I miss Phil.

Don't Give Up The Fight!

I feel like I truly am losing battle I don't even want to be fighting. I love my boyfriend so much but he doesn't show me any love at all. I genuinely don't think he cares for me anymore, as he has been nothing but cold towards me over the past few weeks. I fell quite ill last week and he has barely shown any interest or care. I've since gone home and have barely heard from him. I don't know what to do, how to revive it. Leave him alone? Perhaps. This is killing me inside, I feel so sad. Just a month ago we were coming home from Paris.
Oh I love him.
I wish I had someone to talk to.